Sunday, June 26, 2005
Itz happening again... Fuck!

yesterday was no doubt one of the worst nyte i have in the store.. for no reason, i was down.. with everything.. my face changed the moment i tot bout something.. funny thing is that i cant remember wat was it...

it took me quite a long time to actually warm up with the partners... everyone kept asking if i was alrite... i told them i was but some knew i wasn't.. especially Inah... my head aches and when i took some pills, it raised the alarm.. everyone stayed away from me for a few hours till it was closin.. the old me was back...

thank God!

had some novacaine and i was kewl... was laffing and laffing and had a good closin with Inah around... screamsing to 'Hollerback Girl', 'Vindicated', 'Pop Ye Ye', 'Lonely No More' and lots more.. think i drove the customers away but heck! it was already past the closing time...

glad to reached home later cuz i was tired.. hahahaa.. went to slept later though cuz i went to do something else.. hahahaha

oh ya! gosh! i saw you swear my dear... dun deny but you did.. nyeh nyeh..

you swore!

but you did great even though yellow doesnt suits you at all!

now you are left behind again.. damn the red and black.... stoopid!

but i noe you can do it... be calm and composed.. i noe you are.... heart you!

kay got to go.. tmr opening.. hahahahaaaa

till the next entry!

my devilish rants;
2:48 PM

Wednesday, June 22, 2005
Screaming infidelities... Arghh!!!

friday is coming.. soon.. argh!!

todae tiring day.. cuz i slept the whole day! last nyte went for a quick supper before uncle picked us up.. Shaun stayed back to help me close shop so was so grateful for that.. kinda blur cuz neva do closing for a long time already..

then had some reflections while i was cleaning the store up.. bout relationships and all.. lame rite.. how can one think bout relationship while washing pitchers?

well i did.. and it hits me too.. but not that hard.. who is the current guy in my mind now? hmmm... none...

so am i still straight?...

scarry rite.. but to the last question, i still am, so dun worry.. hahahahaaa.. still think that guys are great human beings.. and Baihakki Khaizan is cute.. but gay cute.. hahahahahahaaa

so is Ridhuan and Valentino and my 2 Haydens....

to that someone out there... you hurt me deep deep.. so bad of you.. but i noe you lied to hide the truth from me cuz somehow you tot i cant handle the truth but i can.. told you watever things you want to do, i respect but as long as you noe your limits... if you ever toe the line then you noe i noe.. just dun do it again..

Well as for now i'm gonna hear the saddest songs
And sit alone and wonder how you're making out

once darl... not twice...

but i still heart you..

till the next entry!

my devilish rants;
1:22 PM

Sunday, June 19, 2005
Down down down down

i totally screwed up my schedule for the coming week and really have no idea wat to do.. should i changed it? or should i just ignore it? itz like i was supposed to check that tiny bit of paper but i didnt. i just went ahead with the phone call without even remembering why i actually went to my room and sat in front of it... how goon can i be? and just now when i finally realised why i'm having doubts bout that day, it hit me rite in the face! gooooonnnnnn... helppppppppp

kay, parents are home sweet home yesterday... so happppyyyyy... Mummy's hand was a-okay but it was still swollen.. then just now she went to the hospital and it got bandaged up again.. yeah.. it was not a-okay as she told us before.. best part, none of us noe bout it till my grams called me up one nyte and asking if Mummy was alrite and i'm like, tink so.. then she told us the news.. seems like my daddy's cousin saw them and saw Mummy's bandaged arm and asked her wat happened then dad's cousin told her mum and her mum told my grams and grams told me and i told sisters.. and we called Mummy up.. that was on a Monday.. she fell on Friday.. she said Daddy wont let her tell us cuz he didnt want us to worry...

ya Daddy! you didnt make us worry... Not!

of course we were but if you had called us and let us noe then we wont worry too much.. to hear it from someone else is like you noe.. but neva mind, they are safe so alhamdulilah...

so yesterday my house was packed wit cuzzies and aunts and uncles.. i like... hahhaa

oh ya! went for a test drive at Chevvy.. classic... hahahah tink of getting Aveo when i have the money... hahahahaahah i wish! Abg Adam had placed an order for Optra so it like gooodddd.. i mean with the monthly instalment he paid for that Wira, he mite as well get a new car...

ahak!

Tidal waves they rip right through me
Tears from eyes worn cold and sad
Pick me up now
I need you so bad

luck babe!

till the next entry..

my devilish rants;
8:57 AM

Tuesday, June 14, 2005
Wake me up when June ends...

kay Rossi won again. Sete was weak.. hahaha

oh ya! got The Newpaper todae? hehehe.. go to the sports section.. page 58 and look down on the rite side and wat do you see? a small section on the Young Lions contest.. kay scroll down and wat do you see? yes.. you are rite... yours truly.. me.. hahahahahaa

i've won!!!

Levi's Square Cut jeans and a YL limited edition tee.. weeeeeeee

now i'm waiting for them to call me up and say, "Hi. I'm calling from the NewPaper and I would like to tell you that you've just won yourself an iPod Shuffle.. ".. ya ya.. a girl can only wish..

called mum just now.. they are doin fine.. alhamdulilah.. cept for some tiny stuffs.. heh

last nyte, took mu cuzzies out for a spin which went GREAT.. pick Boi up then he took me to Yishun Dam thru some other place which was scarry but fun.. then we went to Seletar Air Base to look at the private jets and me being me, fantasized that one of them is mine.. hahahah

then we went up to Upper Thomson Road then thru Orchard then to Nicoll Highway then down to Tampines to pick Abu up and we went to East Coast to just sit and eat.. which was awesome cuz we talked a lot..

a hectic day cuz it was blardy tired.. Saturday nyte had my solo moments at the Airport reading Johnny's Angel, again, and my Mocha and tissues cuz it was blardy sad... then went to Popeye's for their mashed potatoes which was uber uber delicious... went home bout 10.. walked more then reached home and watch the Movie Awards with my potatoes and then bout 1 went to sleep..

woke up at 5 cuz i'm starting werk at 0645.. reached 0630 and Man wasnt around! arghhh!!! he's late! he's neva late! panic when it was 0645 then spotted Jessie and opened the door and did my stuffs and then there's a whole lot of people in white/black polo tees and black/khaki pants coming in and out.. kay Starbucks were having this Ambassador Cup at Raffles's CC and the VP of Starbucks, Kristy was here and she was like a superstar.. hahaha

neway different peeps came in and out and i was totally tired even after Man's rollercoaster.. it wasnt werking.. then when it was time to punch out, that Kristy decided to pop into the store. and Man forbid me to go so i had to stay around and smile and bus and smile while Hudah waited for me outside.. hahaha.. cuz i promised to go to Sim Lim with her..

finally at 4, punched out, changed and cldnt walk anymore.. took cab to Sim Lim and then got her the Creative MP3 then we walked cuz i was hungry.. went to the corner little coffeeshop across Swensen's had my wanton noodle. got myself a tee cuz i tot of goin to Gramp's place as it was his birthday.. 75th i think.. needed a tee cuz i wasnt dressed ahem, appropritately.. went home and my sisters were there but we decided not to go to Gramp cuz no one was there...

then sisters went home and i had to follow cuz i need to bring the car home then along the way decided to call Boi and Abu then went home and went out again the adventure began.. hahha tiring.. but fun!

morning, woke up went to fecth Kak Wani and kids then went to the various places she had to go.. send the kids to my Aunt's place cuz they wanted to go there and then went back home to wash the car..

wat a day!

neway, Abu.. kau eh.. thanx a lot on the info.. hahahaa.. sanggup kau buat tu semua utk aku... kau tahu nak buat aper eh... hahahhaaa aku suka kau! hahahahaaa

saw that guy on tv eating cookies and i feel like baking.. damn.. help!!!!

this is when i say i had enuff
no one should ever feel wat i feel now
walking open wounds
a public display of bruises

good luck Ki!

till the next entry!

my devilish rants;
2:07 PM

Friday, June 10, 2005
We won.... weeeeee

cant sleep last nyte so decided to watch the match between Malaysia and Singapore in Penang, on RTM1.. funny that they showed the game.. why is it not shown over in Singapore?? irritating... really tau.. no coverage on the thing and then they say that we must support the local sports scene but then, they are not telling us any... stoooopid! dun say this match, even the s-league received little coverage... who not bosan... hehe

great game, we won again... Noh Alam Shah scored again and Benette was the other scorer.. the opponent would not have scored any if Baihakki did not push that guy in the penalty box.. Malaysian coach was a super sore loser.. running to the pitch and charging towards Razaleigh when the latter clashes with his player.. but lame.. referee neva do anything but instead gave Razaleigh a yellow card. it was appropriate but the coach was a bit off.. then still can say that the referee berat sebelah.. nonsense..

new guys were substitute during the game and the team showed that they are really the champions of South East Asia.. which i hope they live up to the title.. for the SEA Games lah..

oh ya DeeRaaaa... dun worry.. i still haven lose all hopes.. hahaha even though itz like dangling on the string.. like slow spining redemption but i'm kewl... there's always hope at the ned of the tunnel.. that if i walk towards it lah... hahahahahahaahahaa

kalau dah jodoh tak kemana... tul tak? ;)

so dun weerry kay my dear Adek... me still miantain kay..

goin to watch LOST now...

cuz i am..

till the next one..

my devilish rants;
12:12 PM

Monday, June 06, 2005
Yang yang...

yea Rossi won.. Hayden cute as ever... wish he's mine... hahaha ya rite!

had another solo walk to Compass Point.. great nyte... got myself lots of the octopus but chicken balls, my usual carrot cake and last but not least a dessert from Captain's Cook.. weeeee... oh ya! thanx to Old Chang Kee too for the squids...

saw Noor Ikhsan from YL at Compass too.. he was busy talking on the phone and blardy tall! and cute too.. toy boy.. hahahahaa

yeah.. have a thing for guys younger than me... hahahahahaaa... kiddin!

tak game ar gitu... tul tak Killigie? ;)

called mummy just now.. she just returned tot he hotel after doin Asar.. miss her.. now i sleep in her room which is good.. got everythign inside.. hahaahahaha

hopefully our slumber thigny werks.. please do cuz itz been a while since we last let go of our feelings... heh.. and i need to clear some stuffs too

feel like there's a dark force within us.. not that matter cuz i'm in that side but..

rtm 1 is palying this musical movie from Indonesia and itz cute.. like Greese but imagine kids instead of young adults.. and one of the lead, a boy, who is the class bully, is being called 'Yang yang' @ 'Swetie Pie' by his mum.. and his classmate, a girl, Sherina, whom Yang yang bullied, is having a holiday at Yang yang's parents plantation.. nice show...

need to call someone to let go off my thoughts.. hahahaaa before i dun have anyone to talk to

till the next entry!

my devilish rants;
2:00 PM

Sunday, June 05, 2005
Not another deja vu.. na-uh

weeee... we won.. 2-0.. thanks to Noh Alam Shah.. hahahaa.. great game played by the Lions.. so did the opponents.. but we were better... defense was good. Baihakki was almost everywhere and he did a lot of clearing and so did Mani.. pity Masrezwan cuz he was the substitute bein substitute after bein elbowed down... as least he touched the ball.. Itmi got man-of-the-match even though i totally disagree.. heh.. should be someone else but haiya.... Lionel managed a couple of saves but thanks to the defense, he did not have a lot of werk... Aidil showed wat he was capable.. which was good... Ishak Zainol was superb.. fast and all.. the rest was alrite.. need to buck up though in the center.. a bit weak..

wah.. soccer critic for today.. but overall, good game, great team... can masuk final in SEA Games.. hahahahahah

but the referee sucks big time! very bad refereeing...

guess where i was seated?.. grandstand... but better still, at the Tiger FC members area... free flow of Tiger and food... of course i opt for halal stuffs which they actually provide... hahaha. nasi lemak and mee siam and orange juices.. classic.. free tickets, free food... should i complain...?

actually won myself a pair of tics.. hahahaha.. classic kan.... but gallery and grandstand?.. the latter though..

oh ya! send parents to the airport wee in the morning.. they have arrived safely though.. so glad.. miss them already...

tmr got GP... hopefully Rossi wins again.. hahahahaa

my young cat is leaving me soon... again... for Malaysia.. damn.. get me something, you betta.. miss you a lot, i will...

enuff of my Yodas...

tills thes nexts entries...

my devilish rants;
2:30 PM

Wednesday, June 01, 2005
Pedrosa or Hayden or Rossi? Prefer the latter..

went for a ride with dear just now.. had fun!!! weeeee....

wind was blowing everywhere.. this time around i didnt have to wind down the window cuz there was none! hahahaha go figure..

another great feeling.. the last time was with Boi which was kind of him to give me a ride to nowhere and then back to my house and back to his house and then send me back again.. thank you ar ah-boi! biler nak bawak Ishdah lagi?.. best ar...

saturday, Singapore vs Malaysia.. hopefully it wont be another deja vu.. remember Tiger Cup opening in 2002.. scarry.. go away thoughts! shoo!

anyone interested to go?... i'm driving ;)

tmr i'm opening the shop so need to wake up v.early meaning i need to sleep

so, short entry.. till the next one!

my devilish rants;
1:12 PM

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