Sunday, December 28, 2003
Everything is wonderful... (i wish!!!!!!)
like this song cuz it's meaningful by Everclear....somehow itz bout me... neway the background song is a song tat i like ever since the album came out but then again, who cares! like you give a shit bout me....
Everything is Wonderful By Everclear
I close my eyes when I get too sad
I think thoughts that I know are bad
Close my eyes and I count to ten
Hope it's over when I open them
I want the things that I had before
Like a Star Wars poster on my bedroom door
I wish I could count to ten
Make everything be wonderful again
Hope my mom and I hope my dad
Will figure out why they get so mad
Hear them scream, I hear them fight
They say bad words that make me wanna cry
Close my eyes when I go to bed
And I dream of angels who make me smile
I feel better when I hear them say
Everything will be wonderful someday
Promises mean everything when you're little
And the world's so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
Tell me everything is wonderful now
Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now
I go to school and I run and play
I tell the kids that it's all okay
I laugh aloud so my friends won't know
When the bell rings I just don't wanna go home
Go to my room and I close my eyes
I make believe that I have a new life
I don't believe you when you say
Everything will be wonderful someday
Promises mean everything when you're little
And the world is so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
When you tell me everything is wonderful now
I don't wanna hear you say
That I will understand someday
No, no, no, no
I don't wanna hear you say
You both have grown in a different way
No, no, no, no
I don't wanna meet your friends
And I don't wanna start over again
I just want my life to be the same
Just like it used to be
Some days I hate everything
I hate everything
Everyone and everything
Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now...
I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now
my devilish rants;
5:44 AM
Saturday, December 27, 2003
The pissed!!!
well... i'm really pissed with everything and everyone.... neway christmas is over for now i tink.. hahahaha... went swimming with my aunt and cuzzies on the eve and then we had christmas dinner at my kakak sedara house... she cooked spaghetti and chicken rice. it was nice....
then on christmas day itself, my mum, Kak Ina, Abg Adam, Kak Suzee, Abg Md Nor and Sofea and my aunt and cuzzies went to Jurong BirdPark... a lot of peeps though and the moment we stepped out of the place, it rained heavily... scary though.. ahahahahaa... then we went to Kak Wani's place for our dinner... we had roasted chicken in bbq sauce, mashed potatoes, mixed veg and soup.... it was a feast... then it was opening of pressies time... we got a lot of pressies for the kids and my aunt... they were so happy especially the kids and they went around bisous-ing to those who got them gifts... and i got the first bisous.... cuz they opened mine first...hahahaha....
we went home only to remember that the tv was spolit. there is audio but no image... damn!!!!!! so the house was a bit quiet that nyte but neway i went to bed at 9 cuz i was having a bad migraine... it was very bad... i still have it now though and my voice is getting worse...hahaha... and my nose is blocked and if got phlem or phglem or watever in my lungs... cuz when i coughed hard, tat greenish thing (eurgh...) will be there...hahahahaha... lame but i'm tired though...sigh...
neway, since i'm like the only child left, itz all up to me... not decisions but watver stuffd they cant do, i have to do... pissed!!!! like just now, i had to go for Sofea's orientation and get her uniform... my dad is buying a new car todae and guess who followed...? my sis and her husband.. i mean like, hello? you got yourself a car and i'll be the one who will be sitting in Dad's car so buzz off... but watever... they are the king and queen for the week so watever... pissed... hahahahaha
oh ya! i tink i'm a fanatic for fiction story.(or is it non-fic?....).. first it was Harry Potter and now LOTR... gosh! Ida and Dayah kept mentioning the merchendise in their blog and i'm so jealous of them... i mean they got some of the stuffs from the movie and all i have of the the movie is the patheritc poster from the marathon... geee.... i tink i would like to go shopping this weekend... hahahahaha neway got to revamp my room since itz my room... cept itz bein shared by my maid so watver, the room is mine! tot of getting the feathers boa from spotlight and glued it around my mirror... then get some bed sheets in purple and pink (my fav!!!) and then re-locate the pc and the study table and do something to the room... but cant do it now cuz it fucking in a mess from the wedding... since itz my room, i mean only me and bibik sleep there, lets put all the stuffs in the room... sapz.... biasa... itz always my room... it fucking messy with the fucking flowers and the fucking everything that come from the other fucking room is being tranfered here so i dun noe when will be able to do my revamp....damn!!! fucking shits! damn..pissed huh...sorree...
neway, i hope i'll be doin my practical this yr... my ftt expires in oct so i have to chop2... neway i tink i'll opt for the skool since dad said he'll be paying for it but some people are just so jealous tat dad's paying and all so go fuck off! still can argue bout my allowance... kept saying i cld pay some of the practical with my allowance... damn it! wit 200 dollars minus 50 for bills left with 150... for the whole month... that doesnt include transport fee.. so just back off aite! pissed! damn... tis is the first time i'm expriencing pre-wedding despression and post-wedding despression...damn!
neway take care and till the next entry!
my devilish rants;
1:44 PM
Tuesday, December 23, 2003
Tired, tired me...
hey... been so long.. neway, i feel so damn tired after the fiasco of the wedding... things turned out well cept for the rain but it was cooling... dinner was also alrite but it was raining.... neway, the food was also good but cant complain much on that either... hahaha... but i was a bit pissed with everyone i noe... hahaha lame! especially some of my aunts..... wont say no names but itz bad.... hahhahaaa... cuz they kept pissing me off with things that are not related to me... irritating!!!!! i nearly cried most of the time but manged to keep them back... thank god this will be the last wedding i'm ever gonna feel for my family cuz itz my turn next! hrmph! hahhahaha...
neway, Marathon thingy.... it was
GREAT!!!! all my aunts tot i was crazy enuff to do the marathon but it was nothing neway.... hahaha... neway overall, the whole thing, i give a 11 out of 10... hahahaa... the movie was great, the seats was good cept for the view cuz got these 2 ang mohs who were tall and their heads covered 1/8 of the screen so i had to shift most of the time... but it was alrite... i dun noe bout Ida falling asleep but i did fall asleep during the two towers .. the begining part when they were making the journey.. it was boring for me and fruthermore i need to catch my lost of sleep over the past few days.... but iwas wide awake when it was the return of the king cuz of my gastric... damn! we quickly rushed to the nearest gurdian pharmacy to get actel during the last half-hour... but it was all good... managed to hold on througout the show so i'm kewl! then we saw this ring and it was
WOW.... it was 29.90... told my sis bout it but she gave me that kind of look so did not mention it anymore... hahaha...
neway;
Kak Suzee & Abg Md Nor---> Congratulations to the both of you! may you last till forever and ever and may you have lots of kids!
Abg Md Nor---> Welcome to the family bro!!!
Kak Suzee---> i'm still waiting for my pressie... oh ya!
Happy Belated Burfday!!! wont give you yours till i received mine!!! hehehhahaa
Daddy--->
Happy Belated Burfday to you too!! Even though we were busy on the wedding day, i still noe it was your burfday... i love you so much!!!!
Ida, Aisha, Dayana, Naddy & Lin---> Thanx for coming to the wedding!!! means a lot to me!
Hidayah---> Thanx for the bracelet gerl!! was shocked to see your card!! oh ya! knew you cldnt come to the wedding but i appreciate that you told me bout it... neway, take care!
Yatee---> i noe you are a bit stress rite now but anytime you need a shoulder or a fren, give me a call... i'll try to be there for you like you were there for me... insya Allah your dad will get better as days go by...
i'll post watever pictures i can get asap even though i've been saying that looooonnnggg time ago but i'll try!
take care and till the next entry!
my devilish rants;
7:00 PM
Wednesday, December 10, 2003
Happy Burfday To Me!!!
finally i'm in the same league as my frens... hahaha. nonsense... neway, it's my 20th burfday and i'm so happy... hehehheheheahahaa....
as per normal, lots of my frens wishes me in the wee morning so to everyone who did that, THANX a lot... i truly appreciate it from the bottom of my heart.... it really means a lot to me to noe that you remembered my day.... so thank you...
tell you more bout my day later so thank you so much!!
my devilish rants;
11:20 AM
Monday, December 08, 2003
One more day.... Yea...
i guess i seems so excited outside but i'm really not inside.. i dun noe why but i guess itz just one of those normal things... sigh... hahaaahaha... but i just hope i do get wat i want though....
neway FINALLY went jalan raya wit the gerls yesterday... started out late actually... met Yatee at bout 12 but in the end we reached Khairun place at bout 1 cuz Anim and Zu were late... then we had lunch there before proceeding on to Wan's house... it was near to Khairun's place... and surprise2 when we reached his place, Zu said that he was her cuzzy and Wan was shocked to her too... neway, Khairun and Zu are Yatee's frens... so neway, after another lunch, we went to meet Shahidah, Yatee's fren also, at the bus-stop before moving on to Hudah's place. reached there at bout 345.. then we moved on to Aisha's place... Eat again before goin on to my place and then Anim's place at Tampines and then to Zu's at Tasco Terrace before goin to Punggol.... Me and Anim and Yatee were the sole survivor... tot if making our way to Yatee's place but it was too late... it was past midnite then itz not manis to go to peeps house malam2... so neway, called my dad to pick us up at Punggol and then send the gerls back home then my mum asked Yatee help tp post this surat and it happened to be her mak ngaji... then went to her carpark and she said that the son was there with her brother. my dad asked her to call him, which he did, then he came up to us and he remembered my dad and my mum and i dun remembered him at all... dad told me that he is sedara kuat tau... and i'm like oh... then they talked before sending Anim home...
woah... long day.. 8 houses altogether... woah... the previous day i did went out with my aunts and cuzzies and my granddad... it was fun walking as per normal...there were a whole lot of us... if i'm not mistaken bout 28 of us walking and talking the train and then the bus and walking... but it was very2 fun.... i guess, i've covered all of my aunts place....
neway, so so tired and i cant wait for tmr cuz i'm goin out... alone... yes.. alone cuz i just want to spend that special day by myself... not bein pathetic or wat but why should you care! hahahaa... tell you more bout it tmr... ahhaaahahaaaaaa
neway dun want to give anyone any msg to todae cuz i just dun want to give anyone any msg todae...
till the next entry!
my devilish rants;
1:34 PM
Friday, December 05, 2003
Happy Burfday!
nope, itz not mine yet but soon but neway, a big shout out to my cuzzy,
Syaza as her burfday falls todae! yea! she's 10 by the way and she got a handphone from her mum and sis... hrmph!!! i got my first pager at the tender age of 13 (sec 2) and first 3310 handphone at the age of 16! (poly yr 1) kids these days... hrmph!
neway, she was busy msgin me bout how borin she was at home cuz she was all alone... hahaa... pity her though... My aunt, Cik Jamal and Syazna came just now and my mum cooked a delicious dish todae. nuting fancy or too much but just a few
IKAN BAKAR!!!! fuuyoh!!! nice with the sambal kicap... yummy!
I guess this month i will be sending a lot of burfday wishes to my family and frens... starting todae actually there is a whole line up of them... Todae is also Mathadir (Fin) then tmr is Ida Carlita then it would be Ashaf on the 8th and then ahem! (*blush-blush*) then it would be Faezah then jump to my sis then Fazreen then on my Sister's weddin, itz my cuzzy then the next day would be my dad then my cuzzy and her dad then my aunts.... wow.... neway... 4 more days to go!
i was supposed to go out todae but the person had a changed of plan.. sad but neva mind i'm still goin out... meeting Dayana later cuz i need to take some things from her then we chill... mite tell you more bout it later aite... been reading my diaries over and over again it seems funny when you re-read them... did i really wrote those stuffs?... hahahaa... anyway, hope it wont fall into any wrong hands... hahaa...
neway, my sis is gettin married in 2 weeks time. cant wait for it actually... cuz we got bajus...yea... courtesy of First Lady... hahaaa.. pant-suit and i-have-no-idea-wat-it-is-suit.... sponsored by Kak Suzee while the i-have-no-idea-suit is bein paid by us... but itz kewl.. i mean she spend a lot already... hahaaahahaa...
neway, sumting hit me recently... not literally but i was thinking that next year, kalau panjang umur, insya Allah, i'll be celebrating Raya alone at home... gee.... so saddening... hahaha...
neway:
Syaza---> Happy Burfday Gerl! may all your wishes come true...
Ida CarLita---> Happy Advanced Burfday to you and may all your wishes come true... and when can we meet up again?...
till the next entry!
my devilish rants;
5:52 PM
Tuesday, December 02, 2003
Wee! One more week!!!!
helo... not been blogging i noe... neway, went out with Lin Marlene and Ida Carlita just now... it was fun! got Ida a wallet and she got me a purse... hahaaa... but meeting them was fun... oh ya! KaK Wani, Happy Burfday to you!!!!! and oh ya! thanx for the ear studs... it really pretty...
i'm really jealous when i see those kids goin jalan raya cuz i still haven jalan raya with my frens... but i did jalan raya with my family the last few days... practically everyday since raya... but it was fun! get to meet some of my mum's aunts and my great-grandmother... i found out that she's now 103 yrs old... that's a century... but she's cute... so now Sofea, Syukrey and some other kids are our fifth generation. wow....
cant write more cuz mum is buggin me to print the wedding cards. itz no enuff so we have to print new ones and itz much more better than the original... gee... neway Ida said that i said it cuz i made the card... hahaaa.. you guys be the gudge.. i'll have both cards out soon...
so neway;
Ida CarLita---> Thanx for the gift gerl... like it a lot...
Lin Marlene---> Thanx for the wonderful day just now... cant wait for the 13th to jalan raya!
Anim, YaTee---> meeting you gerls on the 7th... cant wait!
Kak Wani---> Happy Burfday!
Syaza---> Advance Happy Burfday in case i neva blog later!...hahaha
till the next entry!
my devilish rants;
11:24 PM
